Stress under the finals

For these finals i started off really stressed out. Wondering when I would find the time to study and how I was going to do on them. Affter taking two finals and being told I don't have to take a final and will still leave the class with a B I am not as stressed. I realize that I can't really change a lot of things and it doesn't help to be stressed.

Passionate About

God

Family

School

Work

Friends

Equality

Respect

Children (way they are raised)

Peace

What is Right

 I am passionate about doing what is right. Doing what is right is very important. I see someone drop money I give it back to them, I will help people out in need and do my best to treat all people equally. I offer homeless people food. I treat everyone with the same amount of respect and kindness that I aspect in return. I know we are all children of the Lord and all equal so I do what is right and treat others the right way. I don't cheat, or lie, or steal, I know all these things are wrong so I don't do them. Doing what is right isn't always easy; I haven't always done what is right. That is part of my life that I regret and I am trying my hardest to undo what I have done. Doing what is right hasn't won me any popularity contests. I see someone being mistreated who can't help themselves I stick up for them, I help them out. Doing what is right is very important to me and I am very passionate about following that lifestyle.

God and family

2 more things that i am passionate about is god and family. God plays an important role in my life, with Him I know all things are possible. I do my best to do all things through Him. my family is also very important. My family means the world to me and I try to do my best for them, they are the reason I went back to school. They give me strength to do the things that I need to do to be successful in life. God and my family help me with my everyday decisions in life they guide me to do what is right and to help others in their time of need. God and my family get all my love they are very important in my life and they are the reasons I live my life the way that I live it. God guides my family, and my family help guide me to God.

Capital One

I am writing about Capital One No Hassle Miles credit card. Capital one reminds me of the Vikings in the Capital One commercials. It also reminds me of The Baldwin brother that does the other Capital One commercials. Capital One was one of the few credit card companies I had to file bankruptcy for. Capital one what’s in your wallet? That saying has been around for a while now and it has made them famous. The no Hassle miles card allows you to earn airline miles with no blackout dates and allows you to fly to hundreds of destinations worldwide. Capital one has made many interesting commercials that are still popular today.

Elements of a lie
I was once stuck on a roller coaster for a half hour upside down. I was ten years old it was my first trip to World's of Fun in Kansas City. We waited in line for half over an hour and I was getting really nervous. This was to be my first Roller Coaster that I got to ride. I went with my dad. My mom and sisters didn't want to ride. I remember the roller coaster going up and peaking at the top of the hill. As the roller coaster made it's descent I remember closing my eyes. As the roller coaster started going through the loop it suddenly stopped. I was in the middle of the carts and it stopped with me hanging upside down. I remember being really scared and thinking I was going to fall out. My dad was beside me and he told me to stay calm that help would be on its way. I remember looking up, in wich this case was down and seeing another car stopped on the hill going up. I wondered why we couldn't of been in that cart, or not on this ride at all. The blood was really rushing to my head at this point and I was feeling ill. Mind you this story is true. I am only ten years old and really scared. Ten minutes have gone by and still no signs of anyone, I begin to wonder what is taking so long. My dad is telling me to stay calm. At about fifteen minutes we hear someone on a loud speaker tell us help will be on the way.  After about twenty minutes we see the first people come in to help. they are all wearing harnesses and making their way up to us. They remove the people one the ends first and help them out of their seats. At this point I am about to scream for help. getting to my dad and me takes a little more time. My dad being a big man it takes two guys to help him out of his seat. Then my dad helps me out of my seat. I had no clue this was actually the easier part.  Now we must walk the quarter mile of catwalks and ladders to make out way back to the depot where we can get off. Looking over the edge is scary. My fear of heights at ten years old is really kicking in. After quite a few minutes of walking we make it back to the depot. My mom looks just a scared as i do. My sisters and my parents and me all hug, glad this experience is over.

conflict

A conflict that I have right now is spending time with my family. I love my family but it is hard to find the time to see them. With work and school it isn’t easy to find the time to see them. Most of the time I hold my son or daughter and we just fall asleep on the couch. When it comes to my wife to be Sarah I spend the time talking to her about our day. I am beginning to think about my family now. I plan on having a date with Sarah tonight we will get a sitter and just go somewhere together talk and have dinner just the two of us. Then when I get home I will spend as much time with my two children tell they both fall asleep. I will be off of work for four days, I took some vacation time before the holiday rush hopefully that will allow me to spend some time with my family. Without the time with my family I can feel more stress in my day. My family relieves me of stress and cheers me up and makes me happier. This conflict has affected me sleep as well. I am tired from school and work and when I get home I still try to find the time for my family. It isn't very easy for me being a full time student, working 30+ hours, and still spend time with my family. I sacrifice to try to make a better life for my family. When I am done with m degree I should be able to get a higher paying job and not have to worry about finances or money troubles.

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My dad doesn’t spend the time with me that he should. All he does is go to school and work. All I want is to spend the day with him playing games and talking with each other. I love my dad and sometimes it feels that he doesn't love me. My brother and I just want attention from dad and he won’t give it to us. I wonder if he knows how hard this is on us. Mom, Jacob and I never get to see him. He spends too much time away from our family. We all need a day when we just can spend the time together doing something fun. I want to go to Chuck E. Cheese one of these days this week since he is on vacation.

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As a fly on the wall I see a dad trying to provide for his family. The dad is missing out on some things but he is trying. He is kind of missing the bigger picture right now. He wants better for his family but he is missing out on something’s with his family. I see a loving family who needs more time together. That is just my opinion from a fly on the wall.

Pigeon Impossible

I am Walter Becket a junior agent with the CIA. Sitting here enjoying my bagel, a pigeon comes up to me and starts bugging me. I just opened a top secret briefcase handed down from the President himself. I throw the pigeon a bite and he does not respond. He attacks me and starts biting at my head. I feel this pigeon must be possessed or driven for this bagel in some way. After throwing the bagel I discover the pigeon had a much darker purpose. He has taken control of my briefcase; his plans are not known at this time. He has managed to engage the flying mechanism and is shooting at people; one person I fear has lost his life to this monster of a being. I will try to bargain with this cruel creature. I will appeal to his animalistic impulses. I offer the pigeon the bagel he has dropped in hopes to save some innocent lives. He has stopped firing thank goodness. I have got him to land the craft and hope to bargain with him. This pigeon is smarter than he looks I must have a ploy to get him from the briefcase before something more dire happens. My ploy hasn't worked I must try trickery, as I throw the bagel in the air he is momentarily distracted. I make my move throwing him from the briefcase. As the bagel lands in inveterately lands on the missile launch button activating one of many missiles hidden throughout our country. The missile in the Washington Monument launches, its course Moscow, Russia. This bird this creature, has caused an action with severe consequences. IF this missile hits we will have a swift and deadly reaction that will last and many more people will die as a result. I must stop this missile from hitting its target. I man the briefcase and fly towards the missile. As I am flying I notice the same damn pigeon flying behind me. This pigeon must be more evil than I could ever imagine. As i am prepare to fire and shoot down this missile the pigeon makes his move, nearly knocking me off my course and speeding into the missile. The evil creature landed on the briefcase, one more death to save thousands if not millions is a sacrifice I will be willing to take. As I try to fire, "damn out of ammo." I arm the onboard missiles and prepare to fire again. The psycho creature makes no move; I open the briefcase releasing the crucified bagel. The pigeon follows the bagel as it plummets to earth. I fire hitting my intended target and float back down to earth. Saving thousands or millions of lives and quietly walk away. As the missile hits the earth it kills the crusade pigeon. I smirk and walk away.

would you rather

Would you rather be submerged in mayonnaise tell I suffocated or would I rather be stoned to death by pickles. If I had the choice I would pick to submerge in mayonnaise tell I suffocated. I think suffocating would be faster and less painful. Mayonnaise is thick so it would still take a while to die. Being stoned by pickles would take a while because most pickles are not very dense and don’t weigh very much so it would take a while to really hurt you. Both deaths would not be pleasant and if I could choose a third option I would choose not to die by either of those means. With the mayonnaise I could try to eat my way out. Eating my way out would be one of the most disgusting ways to try and survive but I would have to try.

Would you rather have living eyebrows that crawled all over your face or leave a trail of paprika wherever you go? I would pick the trail of paprika because I hate the feeling of things on my face. The trail of paprika would come in handy around holidays and other occasions making deviled eggs. I wouldn’t have to pay for paprika ever again. The trail would also be somewhat of an inconvenience having to clean up all the time. Having the trail would be better than feeling something crawling on my face all the time. I would also never have to pay for paprika again. Maybe I could sell the paprika and make some money on the side. 

Would you rather look like Yasir Arifat or have the Imperial March play every time you entered the room? I would pick the Imperial march; I would not want to see the face of such a horrible dictator every time I looked in the room. With the Imperial march everyone would look at me when I entered a room. I would demand everyone’s attention and no one would be able to look away. This would have drawbacks entering certain rooms but it would still be better than looking like a dictator.

Would you rather sleep between the mattress and box spring or listen to Funky Town every time you hear music? I would pick to sleep between the mattress and box spring every night because I don't get much sleep anyway so there isn't anything really different. I wouldn't want to hear this song the rest of the time because I have important events in my life coming up and I would want to hear the music that means something to me. One song for the rest of my life would get old real fast. At least with the mattress I could catch a nap every once in a while somewhere else.

cupcakes no wait cookies.

Cupcakes are a delicious snack that is a cake slice in the palm of your hand. Cupcakes are not a very healthy snack but it is delicious. I enjoy eating cupcakes. Cupcakes are a wonderful baked good that everyone can enjoy. Cookies on the other hand are flat and still good in their own part. Cupcakes and cookies are both good snacks and it was hard to choose between them. I would enjoy getting cupcakes if we win this competition. The kind of cupcakes you make matter as well as the type of cookie. Both have their own special ones. Macadamia nut white chocolate chip cookies are amazing, and most type of cupcakes is good too. Now that I think about it I think I want cookies instead of cupcakes. I am changing my vote I want cookies. A white chocolate macadamia nut cookie is my vote.

Red

Taylor Swift has a new album called Red. Rojo in Spanish. Or you can think of old Soviet Russia. Red is also a color of strength. Red can also be associated with red necks. Red has many different meanings to many different people. Red is the color of blood, like the blood soldiers sacrifice to help keep the freedoms that we have today.

Red also reminds me of code red mtn dew, by far my favorite drink of all time. I could drink an entire case in one day, if the sugar and the caffeine wouldn't kill me. I am also trying to be healthier. It doesn't work every day but I do try to work out at least three days a week. If I can work out more I do if I don't get all my workouts in I don't feel the same. I can notice a change in my body style in the past few months since I started working out. Hopefully this time next year I will have even more muscle than I do know. Muscle is also red. It’s funny how I made a loop there and didn’t even realize it. I wonder how many other things are red that we don’t realize.

The stripes on an American flag are red. The words on Microsoft word that you spell wrong are underlined red. When I get to typing and don’t go back and make changes I have a lot of underlined words. The marker that you wrote red on the board with is red. The blister on the side of my finger is red. Your Shaw that you were wearing when you came in is red. The color red is all around us. It is in things we see and it is in things that we see and maybe not notice. I am typing more and more about these subjects that we are given and making longer and longer posts. They may not make a whole lot of since but there are plenty of words typed.

Blog

Looking through all my blogs and doing a word count I am way under where I need to be. I should of been writing all week every day. It isn't easy writing, I should have just written in a journal and then typed it all up when I was done. That would of made up plenty of blog posts and I wouldn’t be so far behind. Right now my word count is just over six thousand words. I am about ten posts behind or three thousand words to go to get all the posts I need. It isn't an easy task to accomplish but I will try my best. It doesn't make things any easier the fact that I miss class for one thing or another. Missing class is what got me in trouble my first semester. I had to retakes English 050 because I missed class and didn't get assignments completed. I hope to do good the rest of the time that I am in college. I am thinking about transferring to MSU when I completed my culinary and Hospitality here. I figure the higher my degree the better paying job I can receive when I am out of college. The only bad part is my student loans right now amount to one hundred and fifty dollars out of my pocket every month for the next twenty years. That is a long commitment and a good amount of the money I make right now. I am about done with this post after I am if I make it to three hundred words that just another nine posts tell I am done with this blog part of this class. Hopefully I pass all my classes with a B or better, and I keep my current GPA. I don't know if I will but I do know that I will give it my best.

Monday October 22, 2012

It is the morning of October 22 I am sitting in the computer lab waiting for my first class to start. Wearing this dress shirt with tie and black slacks I am getting a lot of people looking at me. I don't like to dress up, but I have to dress up for a speech later today. With the size of my neck compared to the hole in the shirt for my head sometimes it is hard to breath. One of the sacrifices I have to make to get a good grade in this class. Hopefully I get all the points that are possible to get my grade up in this class. I missed some important assignments because I forgot to check black board and get everything done that I needed to. Not having a laptop or desktop computer at home is really hurting me. I am glad to finally be getting my money in the next couple of weeks. Now that school is almost over. It really sucks that a mistake was made in my financial aid and I had to do so much more paper work before they could start my loan process.

 I am sitting next to one of only a few empty computers right near the door. Everyone would rather look around for a different empty one than sit down here. I wonder if it is me, or if it so that they can focus more on what they need to do. Class doesn’t start for about another hour, so I think I will type tell it is about time to leave just so I can get as many blog entrees as I can. Writing three hundred words is not very easy. It takes a long time to get all three hundred words written down.

 I am missing my family already today. I don't like that I won’t be getting home tell after seven today, but i need to help a friend out. He has been living with us for over a week now, and he needs rides to work here in Springfield. Hopefully I will get my car fixed this week and be spending less money on fuel.

 I haven’t decided yet on what I am going to do next semester, I wonder if I should take online classes, cram all my classes in 1 or 2 days a week or just take the semester off. Driving back and forth four days a week is not easy, and it’s not light on my wallet. I hope I have more than three hundred words. I am pretty sure that I do. Copying this document into word to check for spelling and grammar errors it seems I have around four hundred and fifty works typed up. This entry so far makes one and a half blog entries in just this one post. I have hardly written nearly enough to make my thirty entrees. I hope they are not due today. Class starts in just under one hour now. Just around fifty eight minutes. Fifty eight minutes is not a lot of time.

 I missed both Thursday and Friday last week, I don't like missing school but when family emergencies come up I have to take the time off.  Hopefully those were the last days that I will miss this year. I have a test I have to make up for my Thursday Hospitality 101 class. Luckily the test is a take home test. I have a good grade in there and I want to keep it a good grade. I already had to drop that class once I can't do badly in it again.

Now I have over six hundred words in this post. Not too bad for ten maybe fifteen minutes of writing. I am dreading this speech later today. I don't know how it is going to go. I hate talking in front of large groups of people. I can feel the butterflies in my stomach and throat already. I am regretting not getting a good workout this morning but I had to leave to get clothes for my speech later. This tie is still choking me. It seems the more I move the tighter it becomes. I can feel at any moment it will completely close off my airway suffocating me. Come to think of it, it could also be my nerves acting up, making me nervous.

It is ten after now. I am running out of things to type and running out of things to think about. I think I will wrap up this writing for now, I think I will play some games on my phone or I will get ready for class.

Five words

indubibly- for sure
what- what, what, what, lil john
ooookay- lil john
beautiful- name for wife
sissy- name for my daughter

Guitars

Guitars are musical instruments dating back hundreds of years. They are mostly made of wood, with wired string attaching a neck to a body. A guitar can be either electric or it can be acoustic it all depends on your preference and your style of playing, Guitars make up all different types of music. Anything from country to rock, guitars are made for both left and right handed people. A famous guitarist is Jimmy Hendrix he was made famous more for his stage performances than for his actually ability of playing. He would break guitars and light them on fire. He could play a guitar with his teeth. Jimmy once made a right handed guitar into a left handed because he couldn't afford to buy a left handed guitar. Guitars are a vital role in music today because of people like Jimmy Hendrix. This writing prompt is not the easiest writing prompt that I have had to deal with, it isn't really something that interests me too much. But I can sit here and write about it because I know that you never stop writing and you never edit until you are done writing. Guitars guitars guitars guitars I sont know anything about guitars. i am so bored with this writing I am just going to keep on rambling until the time is up. Guitars guitars guitars guitars the word guitars just uses the first two lines on the keyboard. The word guitars has almost as many vowels as it does constanints. I think I spelled that word right constanints not to be confusede with continents wich there are seven of.

Who you know, not how you work

I work at Wal-!@#$ and to get a promotion it doesn't matter how hard you work. What matters is who you know. I have worked there for three and a half years and have had one promotion. That promotion came after I threatened to quit and leave them to find someone to replace me. I work hard every single day; I make sure our customer always comes first. I have asked management about new positions, I have applied for those positions and never got any of them. Someone who has been with the company less than a year gets pulled up to a position I asked for and it upsets me. The people who get the better positions don't work harder than I do, they just suck up to management and get what they want. I have worked hard, I have done what is asked of me, and I actually enjoy my job for the most part. The ones that get all the promotions complain daily about their job. The whine and moan and groan, and eventually they will get another promotion into an even better job; until they stop liking that job too and complain tell they get what they want. Most of them don’t even want to work there, they complain on Facebook or in person and yet they still keep their job, and they get promotion after promotion. One person I can think of right now, complains daily on Facebook, but talks all nice and sweet with management. She works full time in the pharmacy making well over what I make, and this is her 4th promotion since I started working there. Another one complains just as much, when a customer asks for help finding something she has told me she will go to the back for five minutes and come back up saying we don't have any in stock. She talks it up with management and she is about to get another promotion.

Things that make me mad

Mondays
Work decessions
People who call their kids names
Violent people
People who care for themselves
No me time
Not getting answers to questions
Brown nosers
Who you know, not how you work
How hard a worker you are
Drunks
Druggies
Thieves
Child Abusers
Court System

physical and personality before and after

A person that I observed today was quite unique. She was tall wearing a cowboy hat. She wore glasses. And she had on sandals. She wore shorts that didn't cover her cast on her broken foot. She had on an orange shirt which didn't hide her broken finger.  She also had short curly hair. Her personality was quite unique too. She was a loud funny person, who was smart but she also cheated sometimes, she was antisocial and clumsy. She was kind of geeky and alienated sitting by herself.

I observed a quite unique person today. She wore a cowboy hat, and 6 foot tall. She wore glasses and she had on sandals. She wore shorts that didn't cover her cast on her broken foot. She had on an orange shirt which didn't hide her broken finger.  She also had short curly hair. She had a unique personality as well. She seemed humorous and loud, she seemed intelligent but she cheated, she distanced herself from others and tripped a lot. She seemed geeky and alienated herself from others.

Audience

My audience this semester consists of people from all different economic backgrounds, people from all different parts of Missouri. Most of the students are straight out of high school. Some of them still live at home, some are out on their own, and some of them have families of their own. Some of the students are parents most are not. My audience this semester is different young people who are all trying to get a higher education. Some of my audience this semester won’t be able to relate to some of the things I am talking about. Some will be able to relate what I am talking about. Most of the students this semester are really creative when it comes to asking and answering questions when it comes to learning about our audience. Most of us wanted to know questions that weren’t probable of happening. What animal would we be, what super power would we have, what would are superhero name be?  The audience this semester was different then the past semesters, the audience will continue to change throughout the rest of my college life. Our audience also includes our teacher, she has probably been through most of the same things that we are and have gone through to get to college. I would enjoy trying to get to know my audience more. I would like to learn more about what they do in their free time, what kind of family life they have, who they idolize? I would like to know what they do in their free time, do they study more or do they play video games? Audience perspectives change over time, I wonder if our audience at the beginning of the semester is going to be the same as the audience at the end of the semester.

Out My Window

Looking out my window I see a yard that need tended to, two dogs that are on their chains outside. I see two kids growing up fast, a loving wife to be holding one of those kids. I see myself off to work, or off to school again. I see another late night followed by another early morning. Looking out my window I see myself getting close to a crossroad, making a decision do I keep down this path or do I change and try something new. Looking in my window I see someone struggling, I struggle every day, college and work is really hard. To make things harder i have a family I support. Luckily I have a wonderful wife to be who does all the things around the house that need to be done. Looking in I don't know how much stress from work and school I can handle, I wonder if I can really do this still. From one assignment to another it is getting harder and harder to keep up with everything. It's too late to drop any classes, but I don't want to quit. I am not only struggling to keep up, I am struggling to adapt and overcome. Life has been a struggle for me for a long time. Since I was fifteen and diagnosed with a neurological disorder that causes my body to grow tumors on most of the nerves. My spinal cord is covered in tumors as well as most of my abdomen. Pain is something I have come accustom to; doctors wonder how I am still able to walk. With a tumor on my frontal lobe short term memory is really hard for me. If i am to remember something I have to try to convert it to long term memory.  Faces come real easy to me, and certain situations in people’s lives do too. I can't remember names to well and it frustrates me that I can't figure out who some people are. With this condition it makes some school work difficult as well. I have to read things multiple times. Looking out and in my window I see things around me, some things I can change and others I can't, but I will always do my best in whatever I do.

Ego

A time that my ego was promoted was when customers compliment me and tell me that I do a good job. I do my best to treat others with the upmost respect and when people recognize that, it makes my ego go up. I treat others the way that I would like to be treated; I do my best to make sure they have a memorable and hassle free shopping experience. When customers recognize this and tell management about the way that I treated them it makes me proud of my accomplishments. It helps my ego when I do well, but if one customer complains about something I did, it would offset many of the good things that I did to help others. My ego can be affected positively or negatively according to what customer says what to management.

A time that a customer did not have a positive experience was when I told them I could not price match an item because it was not the same item they were purchasing. They stood in line and called a manager although I followed policy it still affected my ego in a negative way. The experience made me feel negatively and made the customer feel negative as well. Many things can have a negative effect on my ego, customers yelling or putting me down, customers being negative toward other associate’s. Customers being negative toward management and a trickle down affect to other members of our workforce.

Positive Male Influence

A personal credo of mine is that children need a positive role model in and out of the home.  Children who have a positive male role model are less likely to get into trouble at home, less likely to drop out of school, to use drugs and less likely to end up in prison. Children who have a positive male role model have a better outlook on life. A positive male role model is so important they have started organizations to help with this problem, programs like big brother and big sisters of America, with this program once a week or more, a volunteer will come and mentor a child who would otherwise not have a positive person to look up to. Positive male role models importance has also inspired a movie, Courageous where men also sign a declaration stating they would be positive male role models in their homes.
I try my best to be a positive role model to my children, we try to eat at least one meal together a day as a family. We go to church as a family and sit and worship together. I show my children the importance of going to work and getting an education. I spend as much time with my children doing productive and fun things with them. Being a positive male influence has had me make some changes in my life, I have started going to church and stopped some of the more destructive things in my life. I quit drinking, and started focusing on my family after my daughter was born. Being a positive male role model isn’t hard to do, you try your best and you raise your kids how you think they should be raised. Cutting negative thoughts and actions out of your life will help you be a positive role model in children’s lives. I have cut most of the negative thoughts and actions out of my life; I still get a negative thought or two on occasion. When something bad happens I try to look for the positive. If I have a bad day at work I see at least I get to go home to a family that supports me and loves the sacrifices that I make for them to have a better life. If I am fighting with Sarah, I know we are arguing now but we still love each other and it is going to take more than this little fight to end what we have together.
A positive male role model doesn’t necessarily have to be the father of the children. Nephews and nieces look up to their uncles as a positive male role model, before I had children of my own my nephews looked up to me, and still look up to me to this day. Their father divorced my sister, and has not been the most supporting and positive person. You could be a positive male role model in someones life and not even realize it. A neighbor who sees you as an older brother, they could be looking up to you. It is important for males to make a positive effect on younger people around them.
Just being in the situation and living with your children isn’t always being a positive influence. If you are doing negative actions around children i.e. smoking, drinking, drugs, and other actions children also pick up on the negative role models. Children who see negative behavior are also more likely to do the negative behavior themselves. Kids who are in a home where there is smoking are far more likely to start smoking themselves.  Kids who are in a home where there is drinking are more likely to drink themselves. How you treat others also affect the way your children will act towards others. I young boy who sees his father acting negatively towards women will see that as a behavior that is ok and will himself treat women the same way.
I am thankful that I had a positive influence in my life. My dad worked hard every day of his life, but he was there for us when we needed him. He was someone I could always go to if I needed someone to talk to, or someone to just listen to what I had to say. My dad helped shape me into the man that I am today. He was a positive role model and I am proud that he was there for me and my sisters.

Credo

Exercise One

I believe that children need a positive male influence in and out of the home.  Research shows that children who have a positive influence in the home are less likely to commit major crimes, and less likely to get into drug use. Children who have a positive male influence are more likely to be a positive influence themselves. I want to be a positive influence in my children’s lives. I show them that it is important to work when needed, to have an education and to go to church as well as spend as much time as I can with them.  The positive male influence in the home has inspired movies like Courageous.

Analyze

Analysis Monday September 24, 2012

From Sunday I fell asleep at about 4 am. I woke up at 9 am and made my lunch for the day. I had a piece of pizza and a pudding cup. On my drive to OTC at 10:30 I opened the pizza to find it was uneatable. So I threw it out the passenger window. I proceeded to open the pudding cup and eat it while driving up here. I made it to the parking lot at 11:35 am to discover no parking close by I ended up parking in the Graff Hall parking lot. I ran to class with only minutes to spare, to discover my first class was cancelled. I went to the computer lab to do some printing off of homework for my third and final class for the day. While in the computer lab I looked up some other things on the internet. At 12:40 pm I logged off and started my way to my next class. at 1 pm my next class started and I went out of there at 1:50 pm. After my second class I had 55 minutes tell my next one. Since I ate all the food I could and didn't have any money I decided to wait outside the classroom. I forgot that we had a test that day so I needed to study. I discovered that I didn't bring my notebook in so I had to run back to my car and get the notebook. I returned with the notebook and started to study. Twenty minutes later the class started. We went to the computer lab by the culinary classes to take the test. When we finished we had to go back to class to do a lecture. The lecture was on out thermometers, how to calibrate and use them. After that we finished and were allowed to leave. I went home and saw no one was there. I decided to play some GTAIV while I waited, I made myself some macaroni and garlic and played tell the rest of my family got home. After they arrived we ate dinner watched some TV. About 10 pm we all went to bed.

Summary Monday September 24, 2012

The summary of my day I woke up, ate some pudding, went to school, took a test and came home.

What is the meaning?

I discovered I don't give a lot of time for my family that I should. I find that I need to study more and remember assignments. I know my family is very important to me and that I need to take time to spend with them besides time we eat and watch TV. The meaning of all of this is that I need to take the time to make time to do the things in my life that are important to me. I also need to make more time for sleep because only a few hours a night is really starting to affect the way that I learn and the way I act around other people.

Major Life Goal

A major life goal that I have is to be the best dad that I can be.


Worked on Goal

A way that I worked on that goal is I spent time doing things with my children, although we only watched TV together. I also ate dinner as a family. Eating one meal a day as a family around a table makes the family bond that much stronger. We ate as a family and my daughter wanted us to pray as a family for our food.

Work

Yesterday was a longer day at work. I went in at 3 and got off work at 11. I got to enjoy being around people I enjoy working aside. I have some people at work that I can't enjoy working with, for one reason or another. For the most part I get along with just about everyone I do work with. I enjoy my job and I am happy most of the time when I go to work.  I enjoy making peoples day’s better, whether I am telling a joke or kidding around making work a fun and not so dull place to be. I enjoy making our customers have a better day than they came in having. I also enjoy interacting with new people every day. My work is my outlet and my way of making this Earth a little better place to be.

Milk Carton Ring

I am looking at a ring off a milk carton. This ring reminds me of the time my daughter first tried pouring the milk herself. She could barely carry the milk from the fridge to her little table, she asked me to open it, when i tried to pour it for her she told me to let her do it. So i waited and let her try. She dropped the jug of milk about 1/4 of the way full and it started to spill on the floor. She was a little upset and said shoot. I couldn't help but laugh at how she tried, and despite her not being able to poor it I was still proud of her. My daughter is growing up so fast. I feel like I am missing out on a lot of things between work and school, and I know it is for a better time for her in the future. I still spend as much time with her as i can. I still give her all the hugs and do with her whatever she likes to do. Looking at this ring reminds me that my daughter is growing up, she will be starting school soon, and she is becoming a big girl. I miss her more right now, and wish I could be home with her instead of being here. I love my family and want to do more for them, and still spend as much time with them as i can. I hope to see them later today before I go to work. Family is very important, and little things can remind you of them every day.

This ring has no beginning or no end. This ring itself is a symbol of a bond, a family. This ring will remain a ring as long as nothing tries to destroy it, or harm it in any way. My bond with my family is growing stronger and stronger, getting bigger and bigger. With a strong bond anything is possible for a family to get through including me going back to school. I cherish every moment I have with my family and wouldn't trade any of it for anything in the world.

Red White and Blue Keychain

I am looking at a red, white and blue keychain. I have 3 stars one red, one white, and one blue. It has 36 more beads arranged in a pattern of red, blue than white. This keychain reminds me of freedom, something we all take for granted. Freedom is very important to me. I know how much people sacrifice for our freedoms. I myself looked into enlisting before I even got out of high school, but a medical condition prevented me from joining. Some people will not stand during the pledge, not remove their hats during the star spangled banner, not honor a solider come home in a coffin, they don't realize how many died to give them that right, and some don't care. This keychain reminds me of my freedoms, reminds me of people’s sacrifices. Not only the sacrifice of that soldier, but the sacrifice his/ her family made, the loved one they lost. This keychain makes me proud to be an American, where people make sacrifices, have heart ache, soldiers die for my freedom.  This keychain is so much more than just a keychain, it is a symbol for what is great about our country, and it is a sacrifice for our people. This keychain is one of the things that is so good about America. I am honored to say that I support our troops, and that I love the country that I live in today.

Dare 2 Play Fair

I am looking at a dare 2 play fair button. This button reminds me of playing nice on the playground. This button also reminds me of all the times kids didn't play nice on the playground. i got picked on a lot as a kid and other children didn't play nice with me. The first time I remember being bullied was in the second grade, I was a new student at a different school. My dad was a high school teacher there and one of the kids, a son of a secretary started bullying me. The bullying continued at that school tell I left in the fourth grade. From that point on tell I was well into high school I was bullied almost daily. I really didn't enjoy the way other kids were treating me. When I see this button it gives me bad memories, it makes me feel angry again. If more people listened to this button and treated others fairly we wouldn't have so many problems with people being violent, with others treating each other badly. I hope more people treat others fairly and do right by others.

This button also reminds me of the times I stood up for others who were being miss treated. The times I helped others who weren't able to help themselves. One instance is a time that someone pushed someone down who was in special education. I saw them push them down so I pushed them down too, it wasn't the right thing to do but they needed to know what they did was wrong.

Better for my family

I believe I can do better for my family. I am going to college to get a better education so I can give my children more. I believe when I get my degrees I will find a better job, and we won't be living paycheck to paycheck. I believe there are better jobs out there, and that when I get my degrees I will be better qualified to do those jobs, making a better life for my family. I believe I will have better hours than I have now, and be able to spend more time with them, more time with my family is very important to me. Having a better education will allow me to do better for my family, giving us a stronger bond, and making us closer together.

I believe teachers can ruin a childs way of learning

I had a teacher in the fourth grade accuse me of cheating. Her name was Mrs. Glidwell, and she said that I cheated on a homework assignment. After telling her that I didn't cheat and I did the work she called me a liar and sent me to the principal’s office, giving me a zero on the assignment. This one act from a teacher changed the way I did things, giving my best work and doing my hardest got me accused of cheating. From that point on I didn't put my best effort into everything I did, I figured if my best would give me a failing grade anyway why should I try so hard. I did the bare minimum on assignments from that point on; I just didn't care to give my best anymore. One teacher ruined the way I learned, I didn't care to learn new things I did not do my best. I could have been a better student if I hadn’t had my way of thinking changed.

I Believe...

I believe....

I am smart but lazy.
Tachers can ruin a childs way of learning.
I can do alot more than I think I can.
Kids change your life for the better.
Certain people can change you for the better.
Everything can change in a moment.
My family is very important to me.
I can do better.
I can do more with my life.
I deserve a management job.
I have more potential than people give me credit for.
Listing is a good idea process.
I will get a management position.
I will do better for my family.
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Myself

Summary of my YMCA ID. I see myskelf a few months ago. I was standing to get my gym membership picture taken. It is in front of the window into the daycare at the YMCA. I am wearing my faded glory forth of July t-shirt. I have that not smiling look on my face.

How it made me feel. This image made me feel good, I was actually going out and starting a workout program. I am happy with myself for actually going out and doing something to make my life a little healthier. This picture still sadens me though because of how I am self concious about my smile. This picture also makes me proud to be an American, that I can wear an American flag t-shirt, and not worry what other people think.

Why I felt this way. I felt this way because I was tired of sitting at home doing nothing with my summer. I put it in my mind and my families that we were going to join a gym and we were going to work out. My friend Bobby put me up to this and I haven't looked back. Bobby was with me that day. We had been going to the gym for a few weeks, and the machine was finally up to print pictures. I got my ID that day, and haven't had as much time to go back, but I have been working out at school.

Jacob

Jacob is nine months old today, he has had a rough start but he is doing really good now. He is started crawling, and he will soon be walking. He does some of the funniest things, he laughs and makes me laugh. He looks just like me and he doesn't let anything hold him back.

Alissa

My daughter Alissa is 2 years old, she will be 3 at the end of December. Alissa is too smart for her own good. She can do some things that most kids her age can't do. She can do almost anything she puts her mind to. She is and always will be my baby girl.

September 10

It's September 10, 2012. We had some crazy storms Friday. I am glad I spent so much time trimming trees this summer, it really cut down on the amount of damage that could of been done. I was walking through a parking lot when the big part of the storm hit. My wife and kids were in the car, and Sarah said that the car was moving with all the wind we were having. My daughter Alissa was still sleeping the whole time, Jacob my son was screaming in fear the whole time we were having the storm.

            I'm really upset about my phone, it isn’t staying charged, and it won't accept text messages. This week with student loans I plan on buying a new phone, and a years’ worth of phone service. Some other things that are planned with the student loan, I plan on putting up a fence and getting a new vehicle for the family. Some more plans with the student loan are to pay off some things so that I can have more money for other things.

Storms in the Ozarks

( Michael Bartlett / September 6, 2012 )

Michael Bartlett snapped this shot in Kirbyville, MO