Out My Window

Looking out my window I see a yard that need tended to, two dogs that are on their chains outside. I see two kids growing up fast, a loving wife to be holding one of those kids. I see myself off to work, or off to school again. I see another late night followed by another early morning. Looking out my window I see myself getting close to a crossroad, making a decision do I keep down this path or do I change and try something new. Looking in my window I see someone struggling, I struggle every day, college and work is really hard. To make things harder i have a family I support. Luckily I have a wonderful wife to be who does all the things around the house that need to be done. Looking in I don't know how much stress from work and school I can handle, I wonder if I can really do this still. From one assignment to another it is getting harder and harder to keep up with everything. It's too late to drop any classes, but I don't want to quit. I am not only struggling to keep up, I am struggling to adapt and overcome. Life has been a struggle for me for a long time. Since I was fifteen and diagnosed with a neurological disorder that causes my body to grow tumors on most of the nerves. My spinal cord is covered in tumors as well as most of my abdomen. Pain is something I have come accustom to; doctors wonder how I am still able to walk. With a tumor on my frontal lobe short term memory is really hard for me. If i am to remember something I have to try to convert it to long term memory.  Faces come real easy to me, and certain situations in people’s lives do too. I can't remember names to well and it frustrates me that I can't figure out who some people are. With this condition it makes some school work difficult as well. I have to read things multiple times. Looking out and in my window I see things around me, some things I can change and others I can't, but I will always do my best in whatever I do.